lifes havoc.

got loads of stuff to do. but jus cant get myself moving. everythings revolving ard stjohns nw. but. nvm. its maybe the last thing im doing. our last comp. i really hope everything wld run well. and ill hav no regrets and washing my hands off maybe.

gotta be studying soon. like wad mi sis and dad says. nomatter wad, its a cca. jus a cca at e end of the day. dat comp is jus a one day thing. win or lose, its ur studies dat matters isnt it?

im dying soon. started mi hols hwrk few days ago. chionging bit by bit every night. orelse, i wont be able to get out of hse for trgns. hah. i wonder wad will mi dad do if he found out i hafta go for trgns almost every other day for e rest of e hols? its my last comp. to me, e jnrs condition, mi team standard, comes more impt than all e other shit probs. which i dint seem to matter much. i tink e best thing i do is to concentrate on their trgn ba.

i gone tru all dis once. took a hard time to swallow it down. and i dont wan dis feeling bac. its pain.